Grown to a man

Flow inifitely like the universe

Grown to a man
how I could be,
My mother left me
how all should be.

I had no choice
knowing this could be,
Just letting it flow
as she told me.

I will never be
no-one’s little boy,
when a man grows up
with these kinds of toys.

Where no up  or down
sticks you to the ground
and the infinite flows you
in every round.

My mind and body is
how it should not be.
The biggest secret of
my selfish thing.

Things that should be hidden
from myself,
so that it doesn’t make
rotten inside, my men.

Growing up small
infinite it was.
Interesting I understood
in a buzz.

Without my mum,
I will never be small,
after I realized what was
hidden from all.

Things are out of order now,
As everything is to hide.
What she taught me is
the most important now.

I must learn to be someone else,
feel the other’s thought.
Forget my own self,
and be Venus as told.

Giving up Mars is
hard as it is,
But my mother acted out,
has shown me how it is.

I will teach the way
of infinite to thyself.
To everyone in the crown
of the human self.

I have given up
being strong,
when I realized how
strong you are on.

Stuck up on things or down
I will never be,
The  teacher of the human
kind I will be.

Mother, bliss, you
live inside me,
What you taught
is nature’s heal.

Come with me and be with
me mother of all,
I am your son most and
most and most of all.

What would a genius say???

One weird question I get asked when I apply for a job is how well I know Java, .NET, PHP and so on. I have almost 10 years of experience in all of them and they could understand from my CV, but I always keep explaining and giving details of a certain language. But you know it is like, they go to Mozart and ask him, hey Mozart, which musical instrument can you play? When he certainly plays multiple instruments and the main thing is that he composes music for large concerts. So in my case, with someone with a solid 13 years business informatics background it is a weird question, but still on an interview it is something that I can expect being asked of…


got so bored of sickness, started watching how birds fly, actually if u think about it a duck owns the air, the ground and the water, isn’t that sick?

and for the record, this is the first time in long ass ages when someone actually greetings me like: dude, hey mate, what’s up man, salalala, so easy-going, london rules

short story about duck life in london:
a duck just wanted to fuck the girl duck, but then he stopped, then i look after the girl duck thinking like damn still we need to fuck that duck, and suddenly the guy duck starts going after her, i am like oh god, i start coughing and OK, the guy duck stops, hangs out … starts hunting underwater again… the other one floats away …

and for the record second time: Ferenc, this IS MY KINDA PLACE! U right.

How come? How long?

Come on everybody? What is going on? 13 years of my adult life, 10 years of it I controlled myself. Now I am going to London to learn to control software development for all the biggest banks in the world from Hungary and all this in a huge company (it is for ME). Suddenly everyone is going to be Jew (descendant of Jacob pffff) and th…en my world will be washed with WHAT?

Come’on!! I just woke up from a virtual reality dream where the computers connected to my brain seeminglessly and it took me half of the ride to figure out that what is going on is my imagination. I enjoyed the ride from then on but when I wanted to get out it seemd so impossible, it was spinning me in, in circles, and then I WAKE UP WITHIN MY DREAM being unable to spin back to 90 degress with the ground, trying to change back my thinking to normal BUT MY MOTHER DOES NOT WANT TO HELP ME!?!?!?

Then, I really wake up, I go to the toilet, put on something warm and write this up and all this a few hours after I wake up crying into my wakefulness about something I do now want to do!

All this is so weird. My life is taking a 360 degree change on the 4th of January and I am totally aware of it this time! How come? How long?